Iowa, Love, and Loss

Iowa was an experience to put it mildly. I found out just how good some friends were and how much that I was not over things. This past year I have made so many changes for myself, for the better! But I have still thought about what could have been and boy did Iowa let me know I made the right decision.

Its been a long year, a hard uphill battle and I thought that I had almost reached the top. My trip to Iowa had me rolling backwards... I normally don't let people get to me, but this one really does. There is this amazing connection on all levels that I just can't shake. But now I am forced to let go, if I can?!? Did I mention that I hate text messaging? I am so hurt, like I have never been before. My heart is shattered, and shame on me this time!

Life is too short to hide behind issues, you have to let the ones you love know when you can. Why is this so hard for some people? Chin up and smile, thats what I am trying to do now. Wish me luck...